It's been a rough day.
I think I keep expecting things to be easy, and when it isn't I go into this whole analytical and questioning state.
What is directing?
Cause it's taking a lot from me having to tell people what to do.
But I'm not telling them what to do, I'm "directing" them right?
What I'm struggling with is not getting back what I want. I've briefed, I've directed but...
Am I speaking unclear? Does it make sense? How many times can I keep telling someone to redo something?
I almost want to just do everything myself. I'm already doing too much, and have done so much! It's all getting to me. I'm overwhelmed. I'm tired and restless...
But speaking about directing again...
I want to be a director because it's everything I'm not!
It commands authority: something which I obviously struggle with self esteem wise.
You have to be eloquent and communicate your ideas well: I can see everything so clearly in my head but recently found out, that despite all the instructions that I give there's still pieces of that image that I don't convey.
Be able to ask for what you want till you get it: um...like yea ok that'll do...don't really want to bother you...
Ultimately it's about having a vision with the patience, strength and confidence to pull it off the way you see it!
Ill get there!!
I want to know how other director's define them self and experience...tell me!!
