Nother Day

I think my last post was the first time I ever expressed my personal feelings so easily, and more impressively in public!

It feels great reaching out to people and making that connection with someone.

Of course I do not believe that I am the only one going through this and that's probably why I'm writing this blog.

To make connections.

And also to vent!

How have things been since? Well...
Like I said, great hearing the encouragements and support and I truly appreciate it and it has helped, but the journey is not over!
I've been home alone for the past three days, asides from my usual trips to the gym. The digital chats here and there and the rest has been overtaken by me, my thoughts and bouts of working periods.
Today my frustrations have been renewed, perhaps because again, I am coming up against a production hurdle!

Why can't things just...Where do I want things to go?

I want this film to be done!
I have spent an insane amount of money into it, and I can't afford to invest in this anymore. I feel my cries are unheard, the production company is taking its slow pace while I boil in anger. I've also taken into procrastination, and  I won't lie a part of me is afraid that the umbrella of safely this film has cast will be gone, and then that famous question comes to mind: what will I do with myself?

Qualified for nothing!

I want my money back!

Sincerely though, I want to reap the benefits of this film, whatever they may be. I've worked hard, and invest so much into it. I want it to be seen, for people to notice it and me.

wtf?! Is that lightening out my window???